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The daily grind

9/13/2012

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There are days when I would give a small fortune for a break from the daily grind. There are days when I am honestly not sure I have enough gas left in the tank to even do a quarter of the work that is on my plate.  There are days when I honestly wonder how much longer until I get to go to bed...and I look at the clock and it is 9am... and then I know something is wrong!  I wish and hope for a change or a break to the pattern of our wonderful but hectic and often crazy life.  And then life presents the change and I see the grind for what it truly is - a wonderful, full, challenging but rewarding and deeply satisfying life.  Today Brien and I traveled to LA for the funeral of Brien's Uncle and father to his younger cousins.  Mark's life was taken in an instant - unexpected, and sadly much before his time.  Today seeing his two sons with brave faces and heavy hearts I felt sad and overwhelmed. I wanted to just pick them both up and take them back to San Diego and make everything better.  I felt sad that they wouldn't get to watch their Dad grow old or have a relationship with him in their later years.  I didn't know Mark very well and the last time I saw him was at Brien's mother's funeral just over 2 years ago.  It was a sad reminder of how life is too short and there are no guarantees.  It is also a reminder that every day - good, bad, crazy, ugly - are all gifts and we have the capacity as people to make them whatever we want.

And I know this... but there have been days lately where the screaming in our house is so loud and the tantrums are so fierce that I find myself exhausted before I even leave the house for work.  I find myself enjoying my office in a new way. I leisurely (but not too leisurely Websense :).. get my coffee and read through my urgent emails to ensure that the plates remain on the table and nothing comes crashing down.  (Work has been even more hectic than usual...and there is no end in sight.)  I find myself looking at the calendar and trying to figure out how we'll get it all done - our day-jobs, the soccer, swimming, skating, riding, therapy, medical appointments, Cecily's Closet stuff and of course - just LIVING!

So... I'm trying to gain perspective and take the sad events of the week and keep them in perspective.  I'm trying to remember that the challenges we are facing with Cecily are actually signs that she is making progress. She is hurting and she is feeling trapped and likely betrayed by her own body.  She needs us more than ever to help her get where she needs to go.  She needs us to help her communicate so she does not get frustrated.  Noah needs us to help him understand what is going on with his little sister and why she may act in ways that seem different and at times hurtful.  Cason needs his parents because he is just a little baby who needs love, attention, nurturing and kisses. Lots and lots of kisses! 

This weekend we'll gather together to celebrate my Dad's birthday - AND to celebrate the life that we are all living together as family.  We will not pretend that everything is perfect - but we also won't let the bumps and bruises take center stage over the triumphs that are taking place daily.  It is sad that it often takes death, sickness or events to give our cage a good rattle... but I think it is how we react to the rattle that speaks the most about what's inside.

We are going to take deep breaths. We are going to let ourselves off the hook. (or some of them).  And we are going to live life with optimism and gratitude for the blessings we have been giving.  And we will allow ourselves to get frustrated - but we won't allow that frustration to prevent the happiness that is hidden on the other side of what seems to be a grey cloud.

There are days when the daily grind will get us... but we'll grind on! Onwards and upwards!



2 Comments
Karen
9/15/2012 12:07:28 pm

I'm so sorry for the loss of Brien's Uncle, Rach. Thank you for the reminder to cherish every moment, even when we are caught up in the daily grind. Easier said than done, I know!

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Anita
9/20/2012 11:09:38 pm

Love you and always thinking of you. Miss you and wish so much I was there to help.

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