Cecily has hit her stride once again and we just find ourselves ever so grateful. After having a rough patch of unexplained tantrums and some regression here and there... we just stayed on track... beating the therapy drum... despite second-guessing whether a detour was in order.
We know life is not easy but we try and find the good in every day. We have a new appreciation for a "good" day. A good day to us is a day full of more smiles than tears, more laughter than cries and more hugs than hurts. It is a day when we are not racing to the "next thing..." but rather dwelling on the best thing - each other. It is a day when Cecily shines and shows the world that if you believe in her she will prove to everyone who is paying attention just how capable and smart she is! It is a day when I find Noah singing sweetly to Cason... This morning I found him cuddling Cason on my bed and singing this tune:
"Cason... Cason we love you... you make me and Cecccciilllyyyy so very happyyyy... Cason Cason we thing you're the best... you're so cute and you make me and Cecy so happyyyyyyy"
I tried for video but I was spotted and I didn't want to ruin the moment. It is hard-coded into my brain and the mental version is likely better than anything I could capture on film or video. I'm pretty sure if Cecily could sing she would agree with Noah's rendition. She signs baby boy every morning and she calls out for her baba or boby... her affectionate term for Cason. (She has mastered Noah so we can often hear her chanting his name...)
We've had a few good days lately and some wonderful days! I am so sad to be headed back to work next week. I love the gift of staying home and loving on the babies. I love everything about being a Mom and the thought of trying to balance work and the 3 little ones is admittedly stressing me out. But... I believe. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that if I work hard enough everything will fall into place. I have hope that my fairy godmother will wave her magic wand and perhaps one day I will get to stay home. For now... I believe that the best thing to do is not worry about the things we can't control but to focus on those that we can...enjoying the time we do have... believing in miracles... hoping the best for our kiddos and appreciating the good days.
Onwards and upwards!